"Autumn Memories": After all, my mother can't see the splashing chrysanthemums

Ask contemporary writers whose works touch people the most mind.

I think there must be Shi Tiesheng's name in it.

Paralyzed at the age of 21, writing at the age of 31, and dying at the age of 59, such a life is a miracle of life. Compared with the works of other writers, Shi Tiesheng's works have a deeper understanding of life.

Only after experiencing life and death, can we know what the meaning of life is, and only when we have been on the verge of life and death, can we understand what we should cherish most.

Perhaps because of this reason, every time I read Shi Tiesheng's works, I can feel the majestic vitality in Shi Tiesheng's words.

It's just that this majestic vitality is not easy to come by.

"The reason why I didn't die was definitely not the temptation of life, it was the delay of death, it was an indefinite postponement, right? What made me want to postpone the execution? Family affection and friendship are love!"

From despair to hope, his mother's persistence and protection are inseparable.

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Shi Tiesheng used to be a vigorous young man.

I was born in Beijing on January 4, 1951, and grew up with my grandmother.

At that time, Shi Tiesheng had excellent academic performance and was also very talented in track and field sports. In the junior high school sports meeting, he once won the 80-meter hurdles championship, and was called a flying man by his classmates.

So, since childhood, Shi Tiesheng has determined to be an athlete.

I think, if he was born in this era, maybe after graduating from junior high school, he would take the professional route and walk out of his own world.

But that era, not this era.

At the age of eighteen, Shi Tiesheng responded to the call of the country to go to the mountains and go to the countryside, and voluntarily went to the rural areas of northern Shaanxi to join the team. The conditions were harsh at the time, and Shi Tiesheng temporarily lived in a cave dwelling. He was not in good health and couldn't adapt to the harsh environment. He suffered frostbite after a short time and had to go back to Beijing for treatment.

Like most people in that era, Shi Tiesheng was positive, and when he got better, he immediately applied to join the team in Yan'an. The people in the team knew that he was weak and gave him special care. He went to the lighter work of herding and feeding the cows.

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Shortly thereafter, he went to herd cattle on the mountain as usual, and a sudden heavy rain made him catch a cold. The injury was not treated in time and became more and more serious.

Eventually, he was wheeled from the hospital in a wheelchair and doctors pronounced him paralyzed in both legs. That year, he was just 21 years old.

Before his dream could blossom, his wings were cut off by fate. At this time, Shi Tiesheng was completely desperate.

He was not as strong as expected. During that time, he committed suicide three times, but luckily he was saved.

I can't live, I can't die, and it's difficult even to move. As expected, Shi Tiesheng's mentality collapsed, "temper becomes volatile", smashing glass, throwing things, he put All the bad temper is given to the person who loves him the most.

In order not to irritate her son, every time Shi Tiesheng lost his temper, his mother would hide quietly, and when the son calmed down a little, she would come back to comfort him.

We don't know how many times this kind of thing happened, but I know that every time like this is the biggest torture for mother.

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Like most of his peers, Shi Tiesheng at this time only paid attention to his own feelings and did not see the changes in his mother at all.

"My mother likes flowers, but since my legs were paralyzed, all the flowers she tended have died."

"She used to toss and turn all night long without sleep."

"Mother came in and blocked the window."

"I was told that her last words before she passed out were: 'My sick son and my underage daughter...'"

At that time, Shi Tiesheng never imagined that after his mother quietly went out that time, she never came back.

Many years later, when Shi Tiesheng wrote "Remembrance of Autumn", his heart was full of remorse, perhaps—regret that he was too selfish and didn't pay attention to his mother's feelings; regret I was too self-willed, and I didn't realize that my mother was dying of illness, and she was still playing her temper on her own...

Actually, Shi Tiesheng like this is very similar to us in reality. Every time something goes wrong, he would take out his temper on the closest people, but he forgot At this time, they are suffering far more than us——

On the one hand, they have to pay attention to our emotions and worry about us anytime and anywhere; Money's...

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The mother is very considerate and always wants her son to see the chrysanthemum.

Later I found out thatthe reason why the mother asked for this was to let the child see the chrysanthemum and ignite the courage of life; Time is running out, and I want to spend more time with my son to see the beauty of this world.

It's just a pity that she said it countless times before, but Shi Tiesheng didn't agree. Later, Shi Tiesheng finally agreed, but his mother "never came back".

Accompanied by his younger sister, Shi Tiesheng finally recovered and went to see Chrysanthemum with his mother——

"The yellow flowers are light and elegant, the white flowers are noble and pure, the purple flowers are warm and deep, splashing and splashing, and they are blooming in the autumn wind."

Seeing the brilliant chrysanthemums in front of him, Shi Tiesheng finally understood his mother's expectations——

When my mother was alive, "My mother and I are together, live well, live well..."

Now that my mother is gone, and I am with my sister, I have to work hard.

It's just that the mother can no longer see the brilliant chrysanthemum in front of her eyes, this re-strive son.

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I remembered the experience of a friend——

He, like me, grew up in the countryside. His parents were ordinary farmers and he had never seen much of the world.

When he went to college in the provincial capital, his father sent him there. After hearing his father talk about the provincial capital, his mother always wanted to go, but in those years, because of the family's financial situation The pressure is too great, so it has not been able to make the trip.

After he graduated from university, his mother brought up this matter again, but at that time he was busy falling in love, buying a house, getting married, and having children. Also shelved.

Later, his mother fell seriously ill. In order not to make her regretful, he decided to take her to the provincial capital to see a doctor, which was fulfilling his mother's wish.

As fate would have it, his mother passed away just as he was driving to the provincial capital.

Every time this matter is mentioned, my friend feels very regretful, thinking that if he could take his mother to the provincial capital earlier, he would not have so many regrets.

We always think about waiting, but only in the end do we realize that most of the promises have become empty words, and there is no chance of fulfilling them.

Perhaps, for us, the most important thing to do is to ask those who care about themselves what they want most, and fulfill their wishes as soon as possible.

Because of many things, it will really be too late.

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